Sunday, July 30, 2006;
♥ 7:03 PM
it pains. to realize that i wont be playing drums every week again. yea. canceling my lessons. i was tlaking over dinner abt it, with my dad.. he knows i'm quite sad abt it, but he also told me i'll really have an even harder time nxt year going every wednesday. dont mention next year, this year has been busy enough. and guess what the year isn't over yet. its just that the wednesdays in sch are mostly for so many other activites. and i have training on wed too. and i haven't been going for too many lessons due to these activities. yea i know that if i'm not scared of that much trouble i would still continue, but its very troublesome for both me and my teacher, and when you're paying school fees and not turning up, its quite a waste. but it totally isn't about the money. its about... time. i know i will be dam freaking stoned without my lessons every week, but i've sorted out all the other options.. and maybe it isn't so bad after all. or am i just trying to console myself. well i have a guitar at home that i can try learning. but that isn't the damn point. i've thought about it for quite some time and i think its best to just let go for a while.. there will be times where i can take it up again.. although it will be much much later.. next year the lessons end at like five on 4 days per week.. and i've thought about changing lessons times, but it may work for this year.. but definitely not the next.. plus i've got training every wednesday and i've to go all the way to dhoby and back again. i've done it many times this year but frankly speaking its really tiring and when i reach training most of the time i'm like out of energy.
there are pple whom i know that self-learned drums.. point is i wont get a drum set till after A lvls. a rule that my dad set. haha beats not getting drums at all eh?
its just that.. from a month later and onwards.. my life would be missing those beats, those flams, those bass drum sounds, those high-hat rhythms. i feel so useless in some way that why cant i just make this work out.. but on the other hand i know its better for me to do this. its just so.
agonising. that i wont be touching the drum set weekly. haha i'm quite a drum freak eh. thats me... thats me...
these days have been doing my tutorials.. and i've been trying to set goals for myself.. since lesser time is spent on drums.. more on studying and TRAINING. i wanna jump man.. fly high. just. jump. high. its so good to feel yourself in the air.. freely floating for a moment.. but thats enough to make me up and jumping more.. to just know you are sort of flying high. haha.. hopefully no more injuries until next year's nationals.. first time i feel like getting a medal so much.. yeah..
its always good to set aims in life (: at least u feel that you're going somewhere. a direction. a path. towards an end. and from that end we start a new journey again.
TMR PE LESSON IS PINGPONG. WHOOOOOHOOOO. ok man all set man. woot! exciting. hahahaha... see ya all in school!
round and round we go...
